Saturday, June 30, 2012

Once in a life time.....

Flash back when I was 9. Wow time past by like in a blink of an eye.....I feel like it's just yesterday I'm a kid now, I'm grown up teen, even though I'm immature, clumsy, emo. I'm still lovable among my friends and family ;)










 It'll be nice to have it again ;)

Friday, June 29, 2012

Once in a while.........

These days I feel empty in me so I took my camera and start snapping some pictures. How I love to see good results.




And these from my drawings. Well let's put it as me n my sister.




I start drawing and taking pictures after I saw Nadiah Ramli's blog (SA senior).How inspired I am with her creative work that change my life from writing craps on my blog into a normal,simple yet attractive. ;) Thnx 



That brave little girl.

Cheryl Costello Forshey, Her hair was up in a ponytail, her favourite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy’s day at her school but her mommy tried to tell her to stay at home still she couldn’t wait to go. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid, she knew just what to say, what to tell her classmate of why he wasn’t there today. But still her mother was worried, for her to face this day alone. But the little girl went to school, eager to tell them all about a dad she never sees, a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the hall in back for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently anxious in their seats. One by one the teacher called a student from the class to introduce their daddy. As seconds slowly passed, at last the teacher called her name. Every child turned to stare, each of them was searching, “Where’s her daddy?” She heard a boy called out. “She probably don’t have one !” Another student dared to shout. And from somewhere near the back , she heard a daddy says “Looks like another deadbeat dad, to busy to waste his day” The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her mom and looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on. With her hands behind her back, slowly she began to speak. And out from a child mouth , came word incredibly unique. “My Daddy couldn’t be here, because he lives so far away. But I know he wishes he could be here since this is such a special day. And even though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know all about my daddy and how he loves me so”. "He loved to tell me stories,he taught me to ride my bike.He surprised me with pink roses,and he taught me to fly a kite. "We used to share fudge sundaes,and ice cream in a cone.And though you cannot see him,I’m not standing all alone cause my daddy’s always with me,even though we are apart I know because he told me,he’ll forever be here in my heart”. With that her little hand reached up,and lay across her chest. Feeling her own heartbeat,beneath her favorite dress. And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,her mother stood in tears.Proudly watching her daughter,who was wise beyond her years. For she stood up for the love,of a man not in her life. Doing what was best for her, doing what was right. And when she dropped her hand back down,staring straight into the crowd.She finished with avoice so soft,but its message clear and loud“I love my daddy very much,he’s my shining star.And if he could he’d be here,but heaven’s just too far". "But sometimes when I close my eyes,it’s like he never went away”. And then she closed her eyes,and saw him there that day.And to her mother’s amazement,she witnessed with surprise. A room full of daddies and children,all starting to close their eyes. Who knows what they saw before them,who knows what they felt inside. Perhaps for merely a second,they saw him at her side“I know you’re with me daddy.” To the silence she called out. And what happened next made believers,of those once filled with doubt.Not one in that room could explain it,for each of their eyes had been closed. But there placed on her desktop,was a beautiful fragrant pink rose. And by the love of her shining bright star And given the gift of believing, that heaven is never too far. ;)

Where am I ???

I feel slightly lost nowadays. Somewhere along the line, the bright lights woke me up into a reality life. My current circumstances, however, are not much better. It makes me sad to see how everything has changed in a blink of en eye. People I used to see every day have turned so distant, I barely know who they are anymore. Even worse, with the people I still see every day, It have almost become the unknown to me, neither here nor there, constantly listening to conversations I would love to take part in, but have no idea what they're talking about. Almost. If not for the few people that still feel like home. For them, I am grateful. My days are filled with time/energy for activities, and it becomes quite tiresome- but I survived for the 6 glorious months and waiting for another 5 more years to end of the secondary life, but in this 6 months it consist mostly with our lovely company, laughter, lazy conversations, and a few iced drinks here and there. Slightly lost, but also strangely content. I also wanted to say I'm so sorry for my bad behavior these days. I souldn't do that just because I'm lost out of nowhere and I souldn't put on a mask underneath me. If you don't mind, lend me a hand to pull me up and borrow me your shoulders for my tears the kept all these days.

Monday, June 25, 2012

Don't just stand there!!

How to move on??? CTRL + ALT + DEL :- 'Control' yourself, look for an 'Alternative' solution and 'Delete' the situation that hurts you.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

No more next time.

People will hate when they are being lied straight to the face when they know every bit of the truth. It hurts and make them go nuts of giving that someone a clue that they actually know everything. But they know they can't be mad at them because'APOLOGIZING DOES NOT ALWAYS MEAN YOU ARE WRONG. IT JUST MEANS THAT THEY ACTUALLY VALUE THEIR RELATIONSHIP MORE THEN MY EGO'. Sometimes we have to many things to play with until we forgot that feeling and hearts are not one of them.