Where am I ???

I feel slightly lost nowadays. Somewhere along the line, the bright lights woke me up into a reality life. My current circumstances, however, are not much better. It makes me sad to see how everything has changed in a blink of en eye. People I used to see every day have turned so distant, I barely know who they are anymore. Even worse, with the people I still see every day, It have almost become the unknown to me, neither here nor there, constantly listening to conversations I would love to take part in, but have no idea what they're talking about. Almost. If not for the few people that still feel like home. For them, I am grateful. My days are filled with time/energy for activities, and it becomes quite tiresome- but I survived for the 6 glorious months and waiting for another 5 more years to end of the secondary life, but in this 6 months it consist mostly with our lovely company, laughter, lazy conversations, and a few iced drinks here and there. Slightly lost, but also strangely content. I also wanted to say I'm so sorry for my bad behavior these days. I souldn't do that just because I'm lost out of nowhere and I souldn't put on a mask underneath me. If you don't mind, lend me a hand to pull me up and borrow me your shoulders for my tears the kept all these days.